Happy fifth month, Unicorn!

I'm so extremely sorry for everything that's happened this month. For letting you down... For not being there when I should have... For never knowing what to do, and never doing enough... For being a terrible female companion.... For hurting you.... For bringing you down, and not being able to make you happy again.... For all the pointless things I tried to do that didn't mean anything... I'm so sorry..... And I only hope you can accept my apology, even if you don't see any reason for it.

...On a different note.... Happy fifth month! ....After everything we've been through together, you're still the only person in the entire world who I would ever want to call my female companion. ....I know we've been through a lot, especially in this past month. But... I know that it's all worth it, because at the end of the day, I still have the best female companion in the entire world... And I know that as long as I have you, and as long as we're both trying, there's nothing that could ever make me love you any less, and nothing we won't be able to get through in the end.

....To me, you truly are the most amazing person in the entire world, even if you won't believe that. But... You know I'll do everything I possibly can to make you see that it's true, and that there's nothing that will ever change my mind. Words can't begin to describe how wonderful you are to me. And when I look at you... All I can see is the most beautiful human in the entire world. ...I'd be lying if I said it didn't hurt every time you refuse to believe me, or even accept it when I say that you deserve so much more than you realize, or that you always make me so extremely happy..... But I can't tell you how much it means to me to know that someone as incredible as you could even think about giving me a chance. For five months, you've put up with me through everything I keep putting you through. You've stayed with me through all the senseless depression that just doesn't seem to go away, all the times I've hurt you even though I said I wouldn't, all the promises I made to myself that I've broken, the endless apologies, the stupid things I've tried to do in a miserable attempt to make you feel better even though I know they do nothing at all, all the nights I stayed up far past reasonable hours of the day worrying about you, not knowing if you were going to be okay or not, all the times that I tried to do something, anything at all, but it was just never enough... I'm extremely sorry that you've had to deal with all of this, and I know I keep saying that I'll try to do better, but I really am trying, whether it seems like it or not. I know I'll never be able to give you everything you deserve.. which is so much more than you realize... But I promise that I will try to be the best female companion I can possibly be, if you'll let me. Thank you, for everything you've done....

I know I said that words will never be able to describe just how amazing and completely wonderful you are to me....... So here, have an extremely stupid four-minute-long video that took me two weeks to make and most likely won't do anything at all.

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....Happy fifth month, Unicorn. I love you, with all that I am, and nothing will ever change that... No matter what....




.....Well, this turned out more depressing than I intended.